Here is a letter Ernie has written in response to Hurricane Matthew. Since writing this letter Ernie has been out 2 more times and is out today. Please keep him and the people with him in your prayers as they travel. The impact of Hurricane Matthew has been felt the most on the western part […]
Avoiding pain was my default mode for a decade or two. I avoided pain like it was my job. I steered clear of situations and relationships that might’ve been painful, and I tried to keep my emotional investment at a minimum. Obviously, this was a disaster. Not only is it impossible to completely avoid pain,…
On the very best summer days, the beach at our family’s cottage collects boats all day long—little ones and big ones, friends and family, friends of friends. The day starts quietly and then all of a sudden there is music and someone is grilling and boats are rafted off. Everyone takes turns on jet skis…
“Patience is a virtue.”
It has been a while since I’ve posted any original content on here, and I am sorry about that. Thank you for having patience with me as I learned about patience and am now able to write this post.
As many of you know through knowing me closely, reading this blog, or from conversations we may have had, I have been “in between jobs” for the past year or so. Long story short, I left Oklahoma and my coaching job at Cameron last May with the hopes of landing a job as a Director of Operations somewhere over the summer. This did not come to fruition and I was placed in a position of the “what now?” mindset. I lived abroad, I lived at home with my parents, and I simply lived day to day for possibly the first time in my life.
Instead of thinking “what now?” in the way many people believe it to be of thinking, “What am I doing?”, “Why can’t I get a job?”, “Will I ever get a job?”, I chose to live in the “What now, God?” mindset instead. I was done making plans and decided to fully rely on Him to guide me. Now, of course I am human and this wasn’t a 100% of the time mindset, but I relied on faith and His strength to carry me through the times of questioning. They were luckily very brief and were taken away as quickly as they had come.
So, through this mindset I had finally been able to acquire, what did I learn the most? You guessed it, PATIENCE!! The trait that has been alluding me for probably my entire life. Instead of landing my “dream job” I found myself as a substitute teacher sitting in a class of chatty 4th graders. In a resource classroom helping students read four grades below where they should be. I found myself in a foreign country interacting daily with a seven year old boy whom I couldn’t understand, and who couldn’t understand me. In place of a job working with elite college athletes, I found myself coaching a group 2nd-4th grade girls (who had more pent up energy than any kids I have ever met).
Ultimately, God had told me, rather He YELLED at me, “Kayla, listen here. I know you have all these plans in your little plan everything out just the way you want it head, but I have greater plans for you. First, though, I am gonna teach you a little patience.” And I am determined he was smiling and giggling along the way as I shook my head at middle school boys, said “nevermind” to misunderstanding Germans, and placed my hands on a 3rd grade girl’s shoulders just so she would stop running around and listen to what I was trying to teach her. If you don’t believe our Father has a sense of humor, just check out a coach teaching college athletes, and then watch them attempt to coach youth basketball…
It was trying. It was tough. I was emotional at times. I felt lost. I felt found. I lived. And most importantly I learned.
About 3 weeks ago I was offered and accepted a Director of Operations position at Stephen F. Austin State University in Nacogdoches, TX. Yes, I FINALLY landed my “dream job”, and I could not feel more blessed and thankful. Here is the thing though, I would be thankful had I not received it, because through my experiences over the past year I have learned and grown so much more than I ever would have had I given up, or lived how I was living only worrying about the future. The job is just the icing on the cake that God gave me the recipe to bake.
I pray that I continue to give thanks, ask for guidance, and the chance to learn patience more and more every day. I still have so much to learn and accomplish. This is just the beginning. It is often when we finally get what we want that we forget who gave us that gift.
We lose the gift that God has in store for us when we seek out our own.
I know I am a few days late, but I have finally gotten around to writing a post about the past year. This won’t be in chronological order, rather in going through Kayla’s mind at the moment order, so bare with me.
2015 was one for the books, no doubt about it. So many unforgettable experiences, first times, and bucket list checks. A lot of disappointment and confusion led to a lot of growth, wisdom, and ultimately positive times.
I had an amazing season coaching at Cameron University. We broke school records and set standards for future teams to come. We reached the NCAA National Tournament as well, and the entire season was an experience I will be forever grateful for.
In June, I was able to return to the place I spent the first year or so of my life, Seattle, and had the opportunity to run my first half marathon there. I was also able to venture to Canada during this time and see the USA Women play in the World Cup that they would eventually go on to win for the first time in 16 years.
In May, I had the chance to see our Nation’s capital with my dad.
I traveled to Haiti in July for my very first international mission trip and saw and felt things that I never could have prepared myself for.
I took a huge leap of faith and decided to take the year off from coaching and move to Germany all by myself for two months. I won’t go into detail in this post (check out my previous posts), but I will simply say it was absolutely life changing, and possibly a total turning point in my life.
I grew apart from some friends, and grew even closer to others.
I made new friends as well, and am finally in the same general area as my childhood friends again (something that has been so much fun so far).
I had my first experience of subbing at many different levels in the Azle ISD, and have been teetering with the idea of entering the high school coaching ranks after two years spent at the college level.
I read the entire Bible in a year for the first time in my life.
I got rejected for jobs that I thought were meant to be. Over and over again…
But most importantly, I learned to trust God in all of it.
I am currently training for another half marathon in March, doing some individual skills training in basketball, subbing, and helping out with the AHS basketball teams. My mom and I are currently on day 3 of the Whole30. It was has been semi-easy so far, but worse days are ahead of us I just know it.
I am also always planning that next adventure, of course. I’ve learned that I can’t stay put in one place for very long. There is too much out there to see. My hear and mind longs to venture out to places I’ve never been, whether it’s over oceans and continents, or in the beautiful State of Texas.
Travel and the experiences and growth that come with it are 110% worth the price. Every. Time.
I pray that as 2016 runs its course through my life that I continue to trust in God in both the good times and the bad times, for He is the one who holds my fate and sets my feet on the path HE has chosen for me to go down.
I pray for continued growth and that God gives me the words and wisdom to share more through my blog, and ultimately my life to those who need and those who want to hear it.
I hope you all have a blessed, prosperous, and joyful 2016!!